Perginya Tokcik, Azizi Haji Abdullah.






Kalau sesiapa yang baca Twitter aku, mesti korang tau aku ada umumkan pemergian Allahyarham Azizi Haji Abdullah... He was my tokcik.. adik atuk aku. Satu-satunya dalam keluarga mereka yang berpeluang melanjutkan pelajaran ke peringkat yang lebih baik berbanding adik beradiknya yang lain memandangkan allahyarham merupakan anak bongsu Nek Lah aku.


Aku tak pernah tahu tokcik aku ni merupakan seorang penulis sampailah waktu aku darjah 3. Aku terjumpa novel yang ditulis allahyarham atas rumah nenek aku, Seorang Tua Di Kaki Gunung. (Sedih citenye :( Must read!)


Setiap kali raya, tak pernah sekalipun Tokcik aku tak datang ke rumah atuk aku untuk tengok abangnye. Tanya bendang macam mana, kuat lagi tak buat rumah, pastu borak2 pasal adik beradik diorang yang lain. Dulu selalu dia tanya aku pasal study aku... Aku plak selalu tengok tokcik macam orang luar sebab tokcik memang tak macam orang kampung... macam reporter lak tanya macam2. LOL! 


Bila dah form 3, aku join kelab sayembara. Abis bengkel penulisan, pernah dapat novel sayembara yang di dalamnya turut mengandungi cerpen tokcik aku. Bangga giler. Bangga setiap kali nampak namanya di mana2 dalam media cetak. Secara tak langsung, membuatkan aku lebih cintakan bidang penulisan. 


Yang anehnya, sepanjang hayat tokcik, aku sekali pun tak pernah tanya tokcik pasal benda2 ni. Sekali pun tak pernah. Aku buat seolah2 aku tak tahu apa kerjanya.. apa kelebihannya.. Ego mungkin... cuba untuk tidak terlalu memuja seseorang mungkin...


And pagi ni bila aku tau news ni dari mama, aku rasa macam blur... aku sering baca blog tokcik.. aku selalu nampak tokcik tulis dalam Harakah... aku ada banyak cara untuk kontek tokcik tapi aku tak pernah buat. Aku cuma mengikuti perkembangan tokcik dari jauh. Tapi sekarang tokcik dah takde :( Dah takde lagi cerpen, novel, atau artikel dari tokcik :( 


Sedihnye....


Alhamdulillah, pemergian tokcik akan diiringi doa dari orang2 yang baik-baik belaka. InsyaAllah... Al-Fatihah...

Seeing "signs" and significant things - Is he/she the one?


Today I feel I want to share something. Have you ever had crushed on someone? And when you have crush on someone whether you realize it or not you are REALLY trying your best to find something that your crush does as a signal to you that she also has the same feeling on you. Have you? Even the slightest action like she drinks the same type of water like you are drinking will be seen as a significant signal to you. As time passes by, you will start to hallucinate by searching any common actions and behaviours that you and your crush do to regard them as signals. Maybe you will lay in your bed, thinking and saying "Hey, I think she really likes me because too many signals she has conveyed to me. Nah, I don't think they are just coincidences." Have you been through this situation? 

That is just an opening for a broad topic that I want to share. My friend just clashed with his girlfriend. He was really down and called me to share his feelings. I am not a good person to advise or give motivation because I do not really believe in something abstract like feelings. I just listened and gave my point of views. Very rough point of views where I said "She does not want you so move on. Accept the fact that you just lost her". I know that line is not suitable to say for people who are having hard time after breaking with their love ones but that is the truth. I cannot give good motivations full of sweet words and promises to him. I just can't. I remember his saying " I thought she was the one for me because I always dream about her." Besides that,I also have a friend who also said the same thing to me. He dreamed about his girlfriend and based on some actions that she did in the dream, he strongly believed that girl would be his wife.The sad part is they have stopped seeing each other now. 

The common thing about these two friends is they are having hard times to move on since they have seen so many signs indicating their ex girlfriends would be their wives.Come on friends. I used to be like both of them. Believing in those things. Seeing "signs" and significant things that indicate she is the one. I start to lose faith in those when I watch a film about a rebel happened in France. The movie really shook me to the core. There is one character playing the role as Satan questioning the heroin about signs from God saying that the heroin is the one who can save her country.The Satan questions all the signs that the girl believes as signals from God as signs she is the one. 

Dreams, coincidences and actions that we think significant and signs from God or from whatever you believe in to show she is the one are nothing. NOTHING. We,ourselves who see them and because we want to have something to believe in so we create our own meaning. A dream is just a dream, nothing more than that. Actions from your crush like having the same drink like you, listen to your favourite songs after you introduce to her are NOTHING. Maybe she is just plain thirsty and your favourite songs are really nice.Do not take them seriously. If you want to know whether she has crushed on you, the best thing to do is ASK HER. 

People who believe in signs,dreams and many many more will have hard time to move on. Come on people,you are wasting your time just to hold back just because of those things. Those things are meaningless. You are the one who give meaning to them and you are the one will suffer next. 

You can start believe in your dreams as signs from God when you are already become saints in religion.I am lazy want to talk about that because I am not at that level. Oh,this point of view can be applied in many fields accept in religion.Religion is something deep in meaning. Laymen won't understand unless you have reached the level required. 


It is the time for me to sleep. Good night my grandchildren..bye2



This post is taken from my lil bro's blog. I decided to re-post this because I like the entry. This is the second time I re-post his post here. You can follow his blog here:

Kenangan Puasa

Heheh.. sorry ye dah lama tak update. Sebabnye, aku banyak membebel dalam twitter so kebanyakan perkara yang tersimpan dalam benak aku ni, aku dah luahkan dalam twitter and by the time aku nak update blog aku, aku rasa macam semua aku dah cakap, so agak no point jugak la untuk aku tulis perkara yang sama berkali2.

Oh yeah, puasa datang lagi. Kecik2 dulu kalau time puasa ni sangatlah mencabar sebab kena tahan lapar and dahaga. Rasa macam dahaga gile, sampai kalau dapat air sirap limau satu kolah pun rasanya cam boleh dihabiskan. Tapi kalau dah besar panjang ni, kalau tak puasa gak lagi, aku tak tau la nak cakap pe kan. Setakat lapar and dahaga tu apa lah sangat bagi kita yang sungguh matang ni..LOL... lagi sulit nak kawal diri dari buat dosa yang akan sia2kan puasa kita kot :P

Ok...aku malas la nak kutuk2 org, nak maki2 org, so entry sempena puasa ni, aku just nak bebel pasal kenangan berpuasa aku time kecik2 dulu.

  • Kecik2 dulu kalau puasa sehari, dapat RM1. So kalau sebulan dapat RM30 tu kira best gile ah. Sape yang puasa tak penuh, tak dapat la merasa dapat duit raya RM30. LOL.

  • Aku selalu ngelat time puasa. Time amik wuduk je kalau part berkumur, 80% air yang aku masukkan dalam mulut takkan kuar balik. 

  • Time mandi adalah paling heaven sebab leh minum air kolah banyak2. Masuk bilik air nak mandi jalan macam zombie...keluar je bilik air segar bugar!! Macam baru regen! LOL!

  • Pernah time parents aku xde, aku dengan adik kedua aku gi bazaar beli makanan. Time tu baru kul 5 mcm tu. Pastu kitorg masing2 kautim untuk bukak puasa tapi parents takleh tau. Adik kedua aku la punya idea ni. Dia janji takkan bgtau parents aku.. tapi aku xcaye sebab dia ni kuat troll orang. So masing2 mengadap makanan, pastu kira 1, 2, 3 and suap makanan serentak dalam mulut masing2. Kenyanglah kami selepas itu.. Muahaha!

  • Bila time nak bukak puasa je, semua berkumpul kat meja makan. 5 minit sebelum azan, masing2 dah macam nak berlumba. Sorang letak gelas air siap2 kat bibir. Sorang dah standby tangan yang ada nasi ngan lauk kat bibir. Sorang lagi dah letak buah siap2 kat bibir. Tujuannya, bila azan je, terus ngap. Muahahaha! 

  • Time cuti sekolah, gi mancing. Ada 'pulau' tengah2 sawah and di tengah2 'pulau' tu, ada telaga. Telaga tu penuh dengan ikan2 lah macam ikan puyu, ikan haruan, ikan talapia, ikan sepat... Untuk ke tengah2 pulau tu, kena lalu selut sawah. Aku ni jenis takut lintah. So the moment kaki aku jejak je dalam selut tu, pe lagi... lari pecut ah! Lari pecut dalam selut setinggi paras lutus adalah sangat penat woi! Nak2 kalau terlupa bukak selipar jepun. Memang selipar tu akan tersuck ke dalam lumpur. Selipar tu memang akan putus nye ah! The moment sampai je kat 'pulau' tu, dah dahaga gile babi. Rasa macam merekah dah anak tekak aku. Pastu ada la yang baik hati panjat pokok kelapa, amik kelapa muda, minum..ahhhh~~~ Segar~~

  • Ayah aku bagi duit RM20 (time tu ada lagi duit kertas RM20) kat adik kedua aku suh gi beli tembikai untuk makan time berbuka. Sekali dia balik umah, gile besar tembikai dia bawak! Dia gi beli tembikai yang harga paling hampir dengan RM20. LOL! Benda tu jadi bahan sampai sekarang.

  • Ayah aku bagi duit kat adik ketiga aku suh gi beli murtabak. Ayah aku dah bgtau suh beli kat gerai mana sebab gerai2 lain banyak yang tak basuh telur ayam. So ada taik ayam la kat kulit telur tu. Adik aku ni tak dengar... dia main beli je kat gerai memana yang dia ske. So bila dah sampai umah, ayah aku tanya, memang dia furious la. Sebagai dendanya, adik aku tu kena makan SEMUA murtabak taik ayam tu. So nangis lah adik aku ni sambil makan murtabak tu. Muahahhaah! Benda ni jadi bahan sampai sekarang. Kitorang selalu bahankan dia sambil cakap "Syafiq menangis time makan murtabak taik ayam tu sebab sedap sangat...dia takut murtabak tu cepat habis..sebab tu dia nangis2 sambil makan". Hahahahaha!


Ok.. Tu suma cite lama. Time kecik2 dulu. Dah besar2 ni, lain pulak kenangannya. LOL!

Setakat ni je aku nak tulis. Aku nak wat keje. Aku ucapkan selamat berpuasa kat semua and jangan la ponteng2. Semayang terawikh tak yah lah wat kalau rasa2 yang wajib pun liat nak penuh. Kahkahkah! Adios amigos berambus.


AKU TAK PERLUKAN KOMEN USTARD SEPERTI DI BAWAH:


Ko jangan gebang la xpernah mengelat time ko kecik2 dulu. Apa ko ingat hati ko tu dah dibelah dan disucikan dengan air zam2 ke? Ko jangan nak tunjuk baik la dengan aku. Orang yang baik ni tak perlu tunjuk2 baik..org leh nampak sendiri. 

Aku cerita bukan nak bangga la bodoh..tapi benda tu just nak share SEBAGAI MANUSIA NORMAL..bukan zuhud macam ko. Ko tak yah masuk blog aku lagi ok. Aku allergic ngan ustard. Ko nak ceramah agama, boleh gi zaharudin.net. Makasih.